Showing posts with label Serial Killers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Serial Killers. Show all posts

Monday, September 01, 2008

Could I Be a Criminal?

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I have very little in the way of a criminal record, and I'm 50 years old. In addition to not having a record, I did little to nothing in the way of serious crime and not getting caught, and what was done was ages ago anyway.

First of all, it is essential to note that with some crimes, it is almost impossible to start doing them at a late age. Strange, isn't it? Serious cops who stayed awake in Criminology class, especially detectives, know all this stuff, but your average citizen is a moron.

Let's start off with everyone's favorite: child molesting! Yeehaw!

I'm 50 years old and I'm going to say I've never molested any kids. I'll admit to what I call statutory rape, but that was very long ago. If you want to call that pedophilia, cool, then I guess I'm a pedo. No worries.

The whole idea of sex with a little kid strikes me as weird and bizarre for my tastes, but being polymorphously perverse, I guess I could how a guy could get into it, but then I can understand the mindset behind all sorts of evil and messed up stuff.

At age 50 and with no history, I'm probably unlikely to start off doing something like that with no history, but I guess there are exceptions.

I'm surely not a pedophile. Pedophiles are only interested in kids, and don't get turned on by adults, and you can't "catch it" in late life (it always starts in adolescence).

It's true that a number of guys like me (White, upper middle class background, advanced degrees) are going down on child pornography possession. I know what that stuff is, and whether I've seen it or not is irrelevant, as a lot of us old Internet hounds have seen just about every evil thing on the Net.

Point is, I know what it is, have frankly no interest whatsoever in it, know how to find it (it takes a very long time of searching specifically for it, probably days) but have no interest in the hassle, and don't worry about "accidentally stumbling on it".

I think a lot of these guys are into for the forbidden fruit aspect. They like it the same way people like beheading videos. Sure, some are pedos, but I don't think most are.

And there are varying types of "pedophiles" anyway. The two types to be most concerned about are preferential and exclusive. These are almost always males, and it's been there since adolescence. The preferential one prefers kids, but he can get off without them. The exclusive one can only get off with a kid. Some of these guys will marry a child-like woman and get her to dress up like a little girl to have sex.

It's clear to me that Michael Jackson and John Mark Carr are this type of individual, and I also suspect Woody Allen.

The other type is optional, and it's by far the most common. These guys have normal sexual interests and are mostly attracted to mature males or females, but they can also get turned on pedo stuff too, though they can take it or leave it. I think that the term "pedophile" is wrongly used in such cases, and John Douglas, FBI expert on such things, does not use it.

Guys with my profile are also going down for screwing teenage girls or getting them to pose naked. While I understand the impulse, I certainly try to make sure I don't act it. I don't get any offers anyway, so there's not much temptation to deny. As I get older, your average teenage girl seems sillier and sillier, and I'm not even sure if I would do it if it were legal.

Considering that older guys are now getting 10-20 years and similar insane sentences for bopping 15-17 year old girls, you guys really need to watch it out there. I'm serious!

One thing I can't become at my age is a serial killer. You don't just wake up at age 50 or whatever and decide to become a serial killer. For one thing, I'm getting kind of old, and serial killers need to be young and strong to subdue their victims with sheer physical force.

If I was a serial killer, I would have started a long time ago and would still be running around killing people, never having been caught. I'm going to deny that, but you suspicious types are certainly welcome to your paranoid fantasies about me.

I can't be a voyeur, an exhibitionist or a frottuerist either, because I believe that those start young. You don't just wake up at age 50 and start creeping onto people's property and peering into ladies' windows. Nor do you start running around with a trench coat flashing girls or hang out on subways jacking off in public. Nor do you start rubbing against women and girls nonconsensually in crowded public places.

I'll admit to engaging in frotteurism with a total stranger on an overnight bus trip once, but it was definitely consensual, and it was lots of fun. We never even discussed it, we just did it.

The next question is could I become a rapist. Apparently there are some folks around here who already think I am one. That's ok, but I'm going to deny it. I'm going to cop to what some might call date rape, but I just refer to it as "seduction". You're welcome to differ.

Rape is a young man's crime. For one thing, you have to be strong to overpower the woman, and that is indeed what you have to do most of the time. Furthermore, young men have a very high sex drive, and rape is in part a crime of sex, not violence, no matter what the feminists say.

If I were to be a rapist, I probably would have started a long time ago. Any guy my age still raping probably started young. Further, men with my profile simply do not rape. They might commit date rape, but even that is more likely when younger.

How about robbery? Males with my profile and with no history of robbery don't simply take it up at age 50. Also, robbery is definitely a young man's crime.

How about burglary? I must admit that this sounds like a pretty fun crime, but I've never done it before. If I could have burglarized an evil business or someone I hated, I might have been up for it. Burglary is another young man's crime. Anyone still burglarizing at my age is a drug addict.

How about embezzlement, fraud, etc? Yes, males at my age with my profile do quite a bit of this sort of thing. It's not violent, and you can steal a Hell of a lot more with a pen than with a gun anyway, and it often requires some brains or a degree to get into a place where you can even try to do something like this.

How about domestic violence? Men at my age with my profile commit little domestic violence. They do sometimes kill their wives, but at a much lower rate than other ages or different profiles. As I'm not married, there's no wife around to kill, so it's rather irrelevant at the moment.

Could I go nuts with a gun and commit a mass murder? I suppose I could, and guys my age do such things, but most of them don't have my particular profile (multiple degrees, advanced degrees). They are often depressed, deeply depressed. They're also very hostile, and I'm not very hostile, nor am I near as hostile as I ought to be.

Usually they are working at a fairly low level occupation, and I'm not working at any occupation. I don't have any guns anyway, and as they scare the crap out of me, I have no intention to get one. I suppose I could go nuts with a butcher knife or a club, but that wouldn't be too successful, and I'd be subdued pretty quickly.

I don't even have fantasies about doing something so antisocial, so I'm not worried, though 20-25 years ago in LA, I admit I used to have fantasies of throwing hand grenades at the teeming, incoherent, 3rd World-like United Nations crowds moving ant-like along the sidewalks, usually when stuck in traffic. I didn't have any grenades, so it wasn't a public safety issue.

So, tragically, it looks like the odds are that I don't have much of a criminal future. I'll have to be stuck with a life of law-abiding quiet desperation.

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

What Do The "Psychos" Look Like?

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As I mentioned in a previous post, for about 25 years now, I've been hearing people tell me that so and so is a child molester, so and so is a psycho, so and so is a pervert, so and so is a predator, so and so looks like a rapist, so and so is a serial killer, or looks like a serial killer. Or whatever.

I've been checking these guys out the best I can for decades now, and not one of them has turned up dangerous yet. Every one I met was just a harmless neurotic, except for a couple of gangbangers. The gangbangers weren't called psychos anyway, they were called "thugs".

I find this whole exercise bizarre. I really do want to know what the Hell a child molester looks like. People keep telling me that so and so looks like a child molester, but this makes no sense to me. Can someone tell me precisely what a child molester looks like?

Let me tell you geniuses something, all you clowns who think you can "spot the pedo". Tell you what, idiots. You can't. Not only that, you can't even "spot the dangerous person". I'd wager a lot of the folks everyone insists are such a menace are probably the most harmless people out there.

Take that notion, that you can "spot the pedo" or even "spot the dangerous people", into the office of anyone who really knows what they are doing, say, a clinical psychologist, and they will laugh you right out of the office.

Mental health professionals will inform you that there is no way to "spot the pedo" or "spot the psycho" based on appearances. Furthermore, you're going to get such a tidal wave of false positives that the whole exercise is absurd.

I can honestly say that I've never met anyone who "looked like a child molester". I've seen all sorts of guys who looked "weird" in one way or another, but I if I observe them for a while, I can usually figure out somewhat what's going on with them mentally.

There's weird-looking people everywhere in this world. I just give em the benefit of the doubt and move on. I don't equate weird with "psycho", "pedo", "serial killer", "rapist". The world's full of strange-looking people, but in most cases, they're harmless. Plus I can actually read people pretty well.

I did meet one guy who "looked like a child molester", but that was due to behavior, not appearance. I was teaching school at an elementary school in Compton in 1989 when I saw a guy parked in a van at lunch. He had long hair and an extremely strange, haunted look in his eyes.

And I swear to God I thought he was looking at the kids. It freaked me out so much that I got his license plate and called the cops. That's the only "pedo" I've ever spotted, and I don't even know if he was a pedo.

I'm even more mystified by what a rapist looks like. Way back in 1980, at age 22, I was coming out of a porn theater in downtown Long Beach very late at night, like 1 AM.

Yeah, I used to go watch the porns back in the day. So fuck me, Puritans and feminazis.

Well, this movie was kind of sick. The basic premise of it was rape. It consisted of I think a main character who wore gloves and a ski mask and I think he was going around raping women. I didn't really enjoy it. I think it was called "Obsession", but I'm not sure.

I was coming out of the theater to the parking lot and there was this young White guy, tough-looking, working class. He looked very, very angry. He was seething and looked like he was ready to kill. The energy was radiating off him like heat in a desert. He was wearing shorts and had a knife in a sheath on his waist. And he was coming out of a sick rape flick.

I don't know if he "looked like a rapist", but he didn't seem like a very psychologically healthy young man, and I worried about what he might do in the future.

Other than that, "looking like a rapist" means nothing to me. There are dangerous looking characters all over the place, especially in working class White neighborhoods, Black ghettos and Hispanic barrios. I figure 50% of the Hispanic immigrant males walking around my neighborhood look like they're capable of rape. Big deal.

I know one guy in the mountains who did time for rape of a child under age 14. He's an Indian and hangs out in the library drawing pictures. He's seriously anti-social and refuses to talk to anyone. He's lived up there for 16 years and he hasn't re-offended. I knew the guy for a long time before I found out about his offense. I don't think he "looks like a rapist". I just think he's an antisocial asshole, that's all.

Even more peculiar is the notion that someone "looks like a serial killer". Wow. What does a serial killer look like anyway?

I can honestly say that I have never met anyone who "looked like a serial killer", nor have I ever known any serial killers, nor have I ever known any killers period, and I wouldn't know what they look like anyway. Do they look dangerous? The world is full of dangerous looking men, mostly younger men. Do they all "look like serial killers"?

I knew one of the local guys on the Sex Offender list here in Madera. He was on there for molesting a child under the age of 14. I don't know the details. He's kind of a sleazy-looking Mexican immigrant guy, but that describes about 50% of the Mexican guys in my neighborhood.

He worked at the local market, and I never thought there was anything wrong with him. In fact, I thought I was weird and he was normal. I would go in the store and try to act more like the child molester and less like myself. Only later did I find the guy on the list.

I knew another guy who went down on a sex offender law. He lived in Oakhurst and he was in his mid-30's. He had really long hair - hippie type - and worked in a computer store. He was absolutely normal in every sense of the word. Once again, I thought he was normal and I was weird. I used to try to "act like the child molester" when I went there (before he went down on charges).

He went down for "child molesting" - what he did was he shacked up with, I think, a 15 year old girl. He went down for 4 years or so. Now, they'd give him 10 or even 20 years. Not good judgment on his part, but whatever. They also found "child pornography" on his computer. In our Modern Bullshit World, that could very well have been naked pics of his 15 year old girlfriend.

For example, this fire inspector just got 20 years in prison (!?) for getting local 15 year old girls to pose nude for him. That's called "production of child pornography". I don't call that "producing child pornography"; I call it "getting a teenage girl to pose naked and snapping pics".

Incredibly, the judge says he's a "pedophile" and he will have to go on the stupid Sex Offender list for the rest of his life. I don't call this guy a "pedophile" for taking pictures of naked 15 and 16 year old girls. That's a perfectly healthy and normal desire for a male of any age. I do think that he broke the law and was stupid and careless.

Whether this stuff should be illegal, I'm not sure, but it ain't worth no 20 years.

Studies show that all normal males have an extremely high, though not maximal, attraction for 14-15 year old girls. They have maximal attraction for 16 year old girls.

That is, they react as strongly to 16 year old girls as to females of any age 16+. The reaction to 15 year old girls is about 90% of maximum (still very high) and to 14 year old girls, it's about 80% of maximum (still quite high. So it's absolutely normal for males of any age to get really turned on by 14-16 year old girls. It's not "pedophilia" or any of that crap. It's just...normal.


Now, in our crazy modern world, guys over 24 at least need to be real careful about girls aged 14-16. Mess around with em, and you are likely to get pounded for 10 years, or even 20. So though your desires are normal, healthy, and certainly non-pedophiliac, it's best to control yourself and not give in to temptation.

The whole crazy idea that we can "spot the sickos" is complete nonsense, but people believe it anyway. But it's comforting. The notion that we can't spot the psychos makes the world a pretty terrifying place.

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Child Molester Mass Hysteria

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Updated September 2:

Due to the fallout from the Groene case (see previous posts), Steve Groene is pushing a One Strike Law in Washington State, where he now resides. I don't blame him, and a lot of crime victims lash out like this.

As you can see on the page explaining the law, the law is constructed so Joseph Duncan would never have been freed to kill Steve's ex-wife and two kids and rape his daughter. So the tragic past would never have occurred.

California's 3 Strikes Law was written by Mike Reynolds in such a way that the 2-bit thugs who killed his daughter (who merely had lengthy records for petty crime) would have been imprisoned and would have been able to kill his daughter.

In this way, surviving crime victims, or usually relatives of crime victims, are able to time travel. They can go back in time, and in their imaginations, wipe out the past.

The problem is that this is all an illusion.

Mike Reynolds' crazy 3 Strikes Law didn't bring back his daughter, and the guys who did it are going down bigtime anyway. Steve's One Strike Law won't bring back Dylan or Slade, or wipe out what was done to Shasta.

Sure, it might prevent it from happening to others, but to be completely frank, I don't think that's the purpose of these laws. The purpose of these laws is to enable their enraged and vengeful authors-relatives of victims to imaginarily go back in time and prevent the past from occurring by passing a new law in the future.

It's the stuff of science fiction. It's magical thinking, but magical thinking is not just for kids and crazies. Adults do it all the time too, especially traumatized adults. Like relatives of murder victims.

First of all, I will say that this law is not as nuts as I assumed it would be. Some of my friends know Steve, and they did not think he would write a law as stupid as California's 3 Strikes Law, especially since his own son has a record as a 2-bit petty criminal. I'm not even sure about Steve's own history, but my friends say he ran with a rough crowd.

The proposed One-Strike law says that anyone guilty of child molestation (wisely put at under 12) and anyone guilty of forcible rape through the use of violence needs to go away for life. Now, most people would sit back and cheer.

To the authors' credit, the law seems to exclude the "date rape" bullshit by requiring that the rape be forcible and violent. It also rules out the "statutory rape" bullshit by requiring ruling out sex with minors aged 12 and up.

So where does that leave us? With a bunch of pedos and rapists. So why is this not a good idea?

Because right here in Madera, we have 133 people on the sex offender list. In a city of 50,000. Fresno, a city of 440,000, probably has 1,000 people on the list. They're either all or almost all men.
Nationally, with the ever-expanding definitions of sex offenders, there are now 2 million people on sex offender lists! Surely they are almost all males.

This is starting to look less like a war on "sex offenders" and more like just a war on males.

Here in Madera, most of the guys on the list are guilty of rape, child molesting under the age of 14 or even rape of a child under the age of 14. That's probably 100 out of 133. You're going to throw all 100 of these guys away for life?

In Fresno, I bet 800 out of the 1000 are on for rape or molesting a child under the age of 14. You're going to throw 800 guys away for life?

How many of the 2 million on the sex offender lists nationwide would be covered under this One Strike Law? That's an interesting bit of research.

This law isn't going to work. Implemented nationally, it will easily result in life sentences for hundreds of thousands, and possibly over 1 million, people, almost all men. Even if it's a good idea, it's not doable.

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